Sunday, September 13, 2015

Nothing else i do but write. Re: curhat.

How to show your love?
How to show your love with the person you will be with? Seems like it little hard question for me. When you have some principle to stand for.  Would you break it for showing how much you mean with that person you love? I'm trying. I'm not the person who will spontaneously shows the public, like hey! This one is my boyfriend (example for the person you love) and you can see it with all my update status socmed is about him. Well, people should know i'm his. But, is love need a publication?? I dont think so. But, is it like i wont anybody else know that im in relationship? I dont think so. When you mean that you wouldnt anyone else know about you are in relationship, you will just answer 'no, i dont have any boyfriends' or 'no, we're not in relationship' but what? I never mean to say that when im in relationship with someone. I just not continuously to update all things about mine. I will the world know that we're now together, but i wont to tell them. Let the world looking for it, let them curious about that and search it. It will show naturally. Without screaming, intending to show and everything else to get confession with public.
I just thinking to built it just us. Just us know how its work. Just us understand it. Because sometimes and almost every time, public just cant solve the problem if is it. So why we have to tell them?
Okay, back to the way you show ur love feeling. I cant be just over excited when im happy ( except im very very very happy ). Shy! Maybe thats the answered. I really want to make him know that i'm happy. Can i just say it with a word? I dont really trust the word btw. I trust action. So i'm trying to show it directly with action. Maybe need to try harder because seems like it now working for the person im with now. And yes, i try to prove it even by break my principle. Like before i didnt want to do this and those one in relationship. But, now what? I did it ( i just give a few sign to show i dont like it ). The sign like when i said "tidak suka begini begitu" "parried his word or action" or give him an action that show the word "jangan begitu" but i think you didnt get the sign. You dont get the sign and blame me because you didnt get it. I didnt directly to get angry Just because i will you know i'm into you. Like just want to tell that i just will do it with you, so you should know i mean to be.
Well, what i've got? I dont know. Sometimes i just think to over it. Just because i dont know how to treat him well so he'll be more feel esteemed. Its going more harder when you didnt have a same vision. No red line but we want to be with. HARD! I'm not who i'm. Do the things that not my habit. Before, i indeed to show the worst of me. To see if you are really l want to be with me even you know that i'm grumpy, not pretty (sometimes i didnt do make up when i meet him) money mad, and many weakness else. Before, i think that you already accept it. But wait, seems like i need more time to decided. With all those argument that we arguing that night. I point that, before you just show what the good on you which is actually not you. Not in all case btw. Thats why i need to more learn about you and me. Which like an oil and water. Not easy to be one. Now on, i need to follow his way, try to understand what i didnt understand. Leave my ego behind. Maybe this one will work to show how much i really thank for everything.

2 comments:

Dea Triantara W.P said...

ngomong apaan tu yang hahaha

Dea Triantara W.P said...

ngomong apaan tu yang hahaha