over

this relationship finally really over. time to clean up all the thing that can remembering you. end.

i hope it's happen all day

this two couple day of weekend is very beautifull for me, i hope it's won't end, i enjoy much time with you, even not just you and i in there, i just really feel that feel, oh god please tell me if he feel that feel to, tell me that he is my right. i love the time when we take a pray together . it's my first time do it exapt with my familly. i hope that day wouldn't end....

it's blossom and wilted

it's start with unexpecting time and place, an unexpecting guy who introduce his self not more about 1 week, and he just hipnotized me to say yes when he start to close to me, before it's going happyly, flat, safe and peacefull. after the hollyday was come, we have to back to each our country,and it's just feel like a war every day. all the sweet things that he has usually do was gone suddenly.

i can't see you so emotional when we're in different place, and angry to me every day. that's so hurt when i can't be the best for the people i love,when i can't be what does you wanted. that's more hurt when you say that you has choose the wrong person, when you said there's so many girls better than me out side, when you said that so many my behaviour that you dislike.

i understand all your rule that have you made it's only for making me better, may be i just can't understand what did you thought inside your mind. i know exactly there's nothing special in me, i can't cooking, i can't be a sweet girl as your expected and all things that i have done seems like zero in your eyes.

i believe you will found a better one, who can be what did you wanted, the girl who can reduce your emotion, the one who can make your smile blossom in your face. i really can't make that things as long our few month relation.

maaf, sorry, and bian

and thank you for all things that you do for me that make me feel special, all things you granted that i wish you do for me, all your worried, all things you do to take care for me.very very sorry for every thing that made you mad out of control, appologize me for all my bad habbit that i can't handle it to make you happy, appologize me for all my mistake that i relize or not.

inside my deep heart there still full of your face until may be there's someone else can erase and refill it. wish god would give us the best for all, i believe every things has been arrange by him..

23012012

finally we're back to bandung, first time i meet you again,and i think that's feeling exactly still like the first time we do our relation, but i can't show it! i hate that i show you like i ignore you, when inside my heart said that i miss you so.feel like need some warm hugs in the night of the bandung coldness. when you told me that you still love me, i feel like what kind of bullshitis that? when someone said that he still love you with the opposite act. i thought when someone who really love you,he will never let you go what ever the reason. agree??

at my first tedo exercise, we meet again. it's flew like nothing happen, but i don't know to act like what when i talk to you, it's being awkward of all. but i've always gotta act like i don't care.

sometimes my mind just told me, can we fix our yesterday? but it's so impossible to start it first. hhaha. i'm a kind of girl that have a big ego and prestige. i'll wait for you to said it first, but time pass and go, i don't see any kind of your reaction. i really courious what did you think about? but aaaarrhhhggghhh! i do not know.
yesterday someone told me that you have been said that you still love me and nothing less even a bit, but you don't want to make any relationship to me or to another people, because you want to focus in your study, that's so classic reason!! that so ordinary to listen. i even can't accept that for some kind of reason. i've never disturb your lecturer or any kind of that.

what did you think guys, if you and your ex still care each other but you didn't have any status..? and you can't do anything to him€ or her? "that's so hurt!"

huuuuffff!!! now i know what to do. move on!!!! hhahhaha... do not stay to the people who can make you jus feel hurt, and don't wanna make you better even don't want to be beside you every time. because something like that is not good isn't it???

just stay away, make a distance and stop thing about it anymore.

and once more boy! if yo decide some thing like that, please don't act sweet to me, don't over care of me, just do it as same as ordinary friends. because it's make me feel confuse, really confuse! just take it or leave it and case close!

10022012

i can't lie to my self, since i lost him i do really missed him, i don't know how does his brain work to think about this problems, it's 1 month pass since that day, and i know i ve to be adult to solve this kind of problems, get the positive and leave the negative... you can do it kirei!

i have to be more sarcastic to you to made me lost all my feelings. but it's just made some arguing with you about my attitude to you. huh!

11022012

please help me to forget you.

if seperated is the best way, do not make it seems we're too close, keep the distance to reduce the feel. :)

i'm back!

hello, long time didn't wrote something here... lil bit miss it.. mmpphhh... my college schedule was to dense to open my blog, and i don't have an internet connection in my dormitory so there is no my blog update in this last couple month.

mmmm... many things happen while that. i've been in love even broken of that, I've pass all my university lecture in my first year there , many problem with my bestie but alhamdulillah we can solve it all and many more things that i can't tell the detail.

mmm... now i'm on my Holiday, mmm.. boring enough because my high-school friends is in them examination and mmm.. i don't have any activities..

actually i do miss someone for long time before. i do miss this holiday because of that.. but.. everything going to lose because something happen... hhaha... you know what... Zzzz-.- so classic.

mm.. okay, i think enough for now, i'm going to have a call...
see u later in my other story.. bubayyyeee....

the end of the hollyday

hello... I'm back to my lovely dormitory..
welcome to the full of rule part, the part where anything that you do can't be too free..
here is it. to hard my legs to leave that daeng city, but i have to! don't know why, whereas, i was dream to study out of this city...hhaaa... but, anyhow, i love Makassar.hhe..
back to the daily student activities, wake up, go to the college, do the task,eat,sleep... and it happen almost every single day. you know that i don't know exactly about this city where i stay.. so, my legs are restricted to go every where and that make me lazy to go out and if i go out that's means i have to waste my money even just for the transportation..

well, i have to enjoy my life... there is families waiting me there, there is a lot of friends there (maybe waiting me too... hhe.. i wish) and there is a lot of friends here whose become my second family here... they all my motivation! and i love them.. muaaahh!!!!

my dady said......

fiuh...tonight I really feel that those who say 'upset' we call it in Indonesian 'galau'.. actually today, i wanna hang out (for many times) wif my friends..want to go to the festival the same band that happened to my friend participate in the festival ..
and the very coincidence .. mother and father I am today comes from Bulukumba and bad news is that my mother is sick .. His hands can not be driven .. minor stroke he said ...

position here that makes my dilemma .. First, as children who must stay at home because my mother was ill (although I can not do anything, even my mother asked me to stay away just because the smell of my perfume) and the second as a friend who was supposed to come support their band (although only part create crowded, and there is no effect if I come or not)

is this really that feeling????

whaaa,,, i just listening to the radio and hear this songs.... and, just like it's so in me... don't know, is it really show what i'm feeling to another person or what... but, akh... yaaa... still messy in my heart.. just see this...
first song:

Bilakah dia tahu
Apa yang tlah terjadi
Semenjak hari itu
Hati ini miliknya
Reff :
Mungkinkah dia jatuh hati
Seperti apa yang kurasa
Mungkinkah dia jatuh cinta
Seperti apa yang kudamba
Bilakah dia mengerti
Apa yang tlah terjadi
Hasratku tak tertahan
Tuk dapatkan dirinya
Reff :
Mungkinkah dia jatuh hati
Seperti apa yang kurasa
Mungkin kah dia jatuh cinta
Seperti apa yang kudamba
Tuhan yakinkan dia
Tuk jatuh cinta
Hanya untukku
Andai dia tahu......

mmmm.... oh God! if he knowww....... even me.. i don't exactly know it!

next song!

Baby, can't you see?
I'm calling a guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous, I'm fallin'

There's no escape
I can't wait, I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous, I'm lovin' it

Too high, can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning 'round and 'round
Do you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
With a taste of poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic?

It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip from my devil cup
Slowly, it's taking over me

Too high, can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
With a taste of poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic?

Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
With a taste of poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
With a taste of poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now

DON'T YOU KNOW... THAT YOU'RE TOXIC?????

huaa... is it really them feeling who hat the same situation like me???
mmm.. just remembering what i've done to the people who do that what i feel.. so sorry, i know that was lil bit pain... but, i wish i never got rejecting but accepting... and all what i need is he want me back without begging for it!

hey! that was my birthday... :D

i'm turning 19th now...

oow.. feel old.. but, never mind... still teenagers isn't it? :D
that was so many happy birthday greetings... always feel happy if see there's a new massage that will saying happy bday rifkaa!!! and happy to see my notification in facebook and my mention in twitter that said the same thing too...
thank you for every body who has been send me that... muah..muah..

here they are the HB greetings in facebook and twitter..

and, i really surprise with the gift from my lovely fulgoso girl..hhe.. because i didn't expected the gift from them.. thankyou sista... :DD
and didn't have prepare to treat them all...hhe...



BTW... here they are my top 10 birthday wishes... :D

1. for the first wishes, i really..really wish and hope and expected i pass the test of my dream university and in my dream faculty. amin :)

2. i wish i can make my friends and my family especially my parents proud of me.

3. have a lot of friends like them.. (my lolypussy and fulgoso2) hhi... >just me and them know who they are..hhe..

4. for the fourth is fad wish... i hope my face will free from acne forever..hha...

6.be more better person than before

7.got less sad and more smile and happy

8.be useful person..

9. for the nineth... it's about thing..
* camera slr


*swatch

10.happily ever after....hhe..

that was top ten of many my wish in my mind..hhe

actually most of them was my wish in last year...hhe..

wish me luck ya!!!!!
cia yo!!!!!