Not only me have that kind of feelings

Finally the others feels that way too. Some people didnt realize how special they are for other that sometimes make me lil bit jealous. People welcoming them,  make a plan so that we can meet together. Is this kind of our friendship. Before, i was thinking that this is just my feeling. I feel marginal long time before now. When they only go with them selves. Well, may be because i ever rejected some of their invitation. But you know? Ive much reason for that. Either at that time i have no enough money or i have something to do more important. Actually the only moment that stick on my head was when one of them come to visit the city i've studied before. I just feel i've already make an effort so that we can meet as one of a host. But what ive know? I feel you think that im useless that you already have that group for stay and can bring you everywhere around the city. Fine. That time, Its just me, just me feels that way. I just let it go. But now, it remembering me again. When the other make a plan just for make our reunion completed, some of us doing other plan secretly and surprisingly surprise us. Wanna know my feeling? Actually i just feeling so so. I've must be accustomed. Already talk to my self for just being best, focus to my own successful and be nice to people (just be nice). Many lesson learn from friendship. Hello and goodbye, i'm a dissapointed friend.

Yes. I need. You

Every body needs friends. I always think that i can stand by my self to do everything. Ok, some thing i can do by my self. But not everything. You can go to the cafe and drink a coffee by ur self, go to the cinema and watch ur fav movie alone, go to the mall and buy your fav cloth. Sometimes it will feel so awkward. People will say, "why this girl sit alone in corner of cafe" for example or "is she watching alone?". Even you didn't care what people said, i bet you ever feel that its more fun if you sit together with your friend especially your boy friend in cafe, chit chat and laugh together. I more fun to watch together so that you can ask a question for part of film that you didn't understand. Its better to walk with your friends in mall so you can ask opinion about the dress you would buy. Even you have a family to be with, you need friend ( actually family is friend too ). Is it???
Talk about it, i feel little lonely after graduate and stay home. I didn't have any sibling to be with. They all grown up and have their daily activity to do first. I didn't have a friends with me every time, we all already have a different activity. You cant force the company you. Boyfriend? Yes i have. But it useless for companying. We're in different island. Yes, long distance relationship. Uw, i hate that. That's the problem. The worst, you cant rely on your bf when you feel lonely. Voice didn't pay that. You cant feel have a friends with phone on ear and walk alone. Its still called alone. Don't know why, i took the risk to be him when i know this things will happen. Well, said that what if i didn't with him, no guarantee i have a bf here. At least if i have no bf, i didn't suggest my self that i have one. No feel to rely on someone. Ugh, forget it. The more i discuss it, the more i feel real lone. I need more socialization, so i'll have more friends. I believe that the more we have friends, the more gift we have from Allah SWT.