Omg. This year im turning 24 yo. I know this will be very late post to share about my bday moment. Theres no very special moment happen. My bday just same day with my high school friends. So that seems every body focus on that. Hmm, they never give any special surprise anyway. But, this year so feel different from other couple year past. Before, im a dorm girl, i have so many friends stay together, we make a lot of bday surprise and i wont forget every bday surprise i have. I love it a lot and i miss it so much. Not just about the bday surprise, its about the moment we share together. I love to stay together with my girls. Sena. Jeane. Kiki. Au. Fajri. They're my friends till the last day in dorm and i wish it still ever after. They all was so nice, kind and my match friends will all the weakness and best we have. We just trying to be one. Ahhh.. Kind of miss the memory we preparation for our lebaran and christmas day. Tried to cook our opor ayam. Wake up to eat sahur together. Stress with all the task, final exam and all about the lectured things. Story behind KIA, praktikum, sidang and our final exam. Story about lecturer, how we got their sign, how we waiting for them, when we get them angry, haters and talking about 'other friends'. Laugher, tears, starving, full, food, clothes, shoes, almost EVERYTHING we share together. Hmmm,, you girls like more than my sister. I cant forget everything of ur kindness. Especially my last room mate. Though our friendship isn that close like before. I wont forget what already we share from the start. Moreover for all your help. Thank you so much much more for help me do every little thing. Helped me From Make my bed to finish my final exam. Without your help may be i'll get little difficulties for made my KIA. The second one is my chinggu. The person i can share every thing too, same as my room mate, but we just a room mate in praktikum. All stories all truth all liar i've done, i think i just share with her. This friendhip just created by it self and i wish it will ever lasting forever until we have hubby, child or however grand child. Please, no war, no problem, no emulation, no jealosy or everything that break ours. I dont know. People are very nice to me. I wish i can do the vice versa. I dont know how to replaying it all guys. So sad that we're not life together now. Now on we need to fight to be success.
Btw, back to talk about my age. Hehehe. I feel old. This is the year when i cant claim all my parents belonging as mine. I was like "i came by my car" now its be like "i came by my parents car". Before, almost all things in house is mine too, because it was brought by my parents. Now? Half of it was brought to my siblings that gain them monet by them selves. My siblings belonging doesnt mean my belonging and vice versa. Ahhh.. Everything has to be change. Now on, i still unemployment. I'm not yet gain my own money, i still depent on my parents money. I wish someday i'll be a millioner, so that i dont need to depen on other money, do traveling with my mom and dad and sibling and friend and husband and children. I still have fight for that and for other things more.
Mmmm, this year is the year when people who just meet you will ask "have you done ur lecturer?" "Have you been married?" "Where did you go work?" And many more classic question to give for woman who tread a middle age. I feel my way still far yet close. In this near time i'll enter the working world. Very nervous for it. Every day i pray to Allah so that i'll get the best job. The job that comfortable for me, so i can work with my passion. The job that produce much gives from Allah (re: rezeki). I just thinking about job that work in office work about napza ( napza was one of my fav study influence in social work) stay in makassar or if its not in makassar better to other city, bandung for example :p . But theres so much procedure to past :(
Before i really enter the job world, i always thinking to to something usefull something like enterprising. But like how?? Already trying to make a food but its trouble in sale. Trying to make a cake but its trouble in the tools. Ha ha. No best thing came with no effort, right? I just keep try again and again.
Enough story for this post. Wish me luck in job world. Wish me meet my real future husband ( a couple year a head it's oke) :D Wish my dream come true :* aaaaamiiiiiin ya Allah.
You know i love you.
XOXO rifka azikin.
